The Waiting One (and tired of it)

[Atsbaby]

I was too mad last night to type my sitch and sadly I'm too tired tonight, but I'm so confused regarding his actions tonight.

As far as I know, he still doesn't know I went to a L today. Not going to mention it!

So tonight I apologized to Clark for my behavior...huge 180 for me. I said, "I want to apologize last night for my behavior. I should not have attacked you like I did. My emotions were out of control." I didn't blame him for lying to me, or any other of the hundreds of stupid things he's said or done in the past few months. I accepted responsibility

So he said nothing and just went stiff with a look of anger (mind reading, but I'm thinking he wasn't expecting that apology). Whatever, I got it off my chest and let it go. I then left the room for some me time and switched gears.

Clark and I have been working on building a new deck to our home since we moved in 4 years ago. There is so much wood and waste in the back yard that needs removing. Scary, Clark is doing this now! So he is placing it into the bagster and I decided to mow the lawn.

I kept noticing Clark watching me at times, and he asked for some help at times, which he could have done without me. I thanked him for picking up the yard (got about 3/4 done). We went in and he took a shower, while I took the dog for a walk. Returned home and I jumped in the shower. As always, Clark found a reason to be in the bedroom.

When s jumped in the shower, we resumed our convo from last night regarding the weekend splitting of the kids. He is actually going to stay at his moms Sunday and Monday nights, with the kids! I'm a little shocked, but I'll take it. I actually get to be kid free for a couple days!

S got out of the shower and him and I began watching a movie on TV. During a commercial break, Clark asked to speak to me. "What now" is going through my head.

"Last night you looked like you could use a hug. I can give you one of those whenever you need it. I'm a compassionate guy. Do you want me to give you a hug?"

WHAT the HE!!?

I'm trying really hard not to read into this. I did hug him, only because I really felt it was more of him needing the hug-and it was tight.
My emotions are all over right now. Thoughts?