NewB3: I have little to offer except this: breathe. I feel your pain loud and clear through run-on sentences that are completely out of character with your previous writing. (That was supposed to be a little funny.) If you have a helpful confidant, now is the time to give him a call.
I also offer you this, it has helped Nitty and Hopetex (my sincerest apologies if this offends - it's all I got!)
2 Timothy 1:7 For God hath not given us the spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
