"My situation is stronger and darker than most of the DB situations because at least most couples are on some mind of speaking terms."

Not really. There have even been cases where the WAS has the LBS thrown in jail and even disappeared completely. So you're not that bad off.

The biggest issue I see is that you keep putting yourself in the role of victim and you have alot or resentment built up towards her. Work on that.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER