I planned on staying quiet and letting him do the talking. Especially since I know this counselor and I really like him and trust that he will do right by us. I am not going to be quiet (unfortunately that's just not ME lol) but I do want to let H open up and take the floor first.
I think that's why I feel it's so fast because I had just finally gotten used to my life without H and then bam he's back and full force. I feel that he knows he did wrong, he admits it, and just wants to move forward and try and forget about everything. I've explained that it's not that easy for me. He says he understands but just doesn't know what to do besides give it and me time. I have to admit he is doing and saying all the right things but it's only been a couple weeks so I'm still preceding with caution.
I am back and forth on the moving in thing. I don't know that I will wait months but I will wait for counseling and see how the first month of counseling goes before I can really make my decision. I'm working hard to forgive so that we can move forward because I think that's what's really holding me up.
I would love to spend all 4 of my days off with him and the boys. He wants to have a date night tomorrow night. I'm just looking to you guys if this is too much if I should separate myself maybe one of the days.
Another big thing for me is --- nothing changed in our relationship that he was unhappy about or so he says he was unhappy about. I really just DB'd as much as I could as far as being nice but for him it was me going dark, GAL and just being genuinely happy during our short infrequent interactions. So what changed? He says he just saw that he covered our problems with someone else. And it took him getting away from that entire family and situation to have time to think to himself to realize what the F am I doing.
