More confused than ever

[woundedfool]

My feelings? First of all I feel overwhelmed and confused. Happy? Yes, but definitely overwhelmed.

Very understandable. Especially when you were getting used to your "new normal". I am sure fear and uncertainty are in there too.
But try to focus on the "Happy" part.

I feel like things are moving a little too fast. I have only been off maybe 3 days in the last 2 weeks so H has picked up every bit of slack. I came home the other night to a new washer and dryer (mine had been broke). He made the appointment for the house to be repiped, I came home to a brand new bedroom set with a new nice mattress. I appreciate all these things but it doesn't fix what's happened.

First, yes... IMhO it is moving fast (but that is not good or bad). Speed and comfort is something you need to come to terms with. Do not be afraid to be honest about it.

I'm looking forward to counseling on Wednesday.

Us too! Little tip, since you have had some opportunity to do some IC, much like your meetings with him, let him set the pace to start. Don't judge, just listen. Again, this is just to start (by no means am I suggesting you not say a word the whole time).

He really wants to move back in to the spare bedroom. He wants me to quit workjng this second job so I can be home more but he knows I can't do that while he's not living at the house. He offered to stay in the spare bedroom while I'm in grad school so I don't have to work much even if I won't work things out with him.

Boy, thats tough.... I would look to the counselor for some input. But, If it were me, I would ask that he know he is to live in his apartment for at lest the next few months. And maybe see how counseling/relationship is going after a few months, and revisit it then (that is just to relieve any pressures).

All of these things make me happy but they don't come without reservation. I want to do things right so we don't fall into old habits.

I think it is very good you recognize this. Seems like that is half the battle.

I'm off for the next 4 days. Is it too much to be with him every day?

Thats for you to know. Does it feel like too much? Does it feel like not enough? What do you think?