You guys are both right and I KNOW their feelings don't matter it's just something I am working on dealing with.
My feelings? First of all I feel overwhelmed and confused. Happy? Yes, but definitely overwhelmed. I feel like things are moving a little too fast. I have only been off maybe 3 days in the last 2 weeks so H has picked up every bit of slack. I came home the other night to a new washer and dryer (mine had been broke). He made the appointment for the house to be repiped, I came home to a brand new bedroom set with a new nice mattress. I appreciate all these things but it doesn't fix what's happened. I'm looking forward to counseling on Wednesday. He really wants to move back in to the spare bedroom. He wants me to quit workjng this second job so I can be home more but he knows I can't do that while he's not living at the house. He offered to stay in the spare bedroom while I'm in grad school so I don't have to work much even if I won't work things out with him.
All of these things make me happy but they don't come without reservation. I want to do things right so we don't fall into old habits.
I'm off for the next 4 days. Is it too much to be with him every day? I made a point to go out after work last night with friends. I stayed at my moms one night during my stretch of work nights (she lives in orlando which is where I work, my commute is a little over 2 hours each way so it saves me)
