Just updating and keeping my mind clear. Nothing really to report other than this week was my D's bday He texted that afternoon asking if I had plans - seriously - I should just get used to that - I think he does that at times to push my buttons just because I have asked to plan ahead before. Anyway - of course i said yes - planning to take them out. He then replied he wanted to take her for ice cream or something later - i took a few hours before responding I didn't want her out that late on a school night but he was welcome to meet us at the restaurant i was taking them to. Of course he replied no - he was tired and would just stay in. Not surprised - actually hoped he wouldn't go but I am trying to be the bigger person. It is especially taxing now though since the kids want to spend the w/es with him - they say they are with me all week - I tried to explain that the week is like work with school and I don't get to do "fun things" with them then. I don't know the best approach to this since the 2 older ones can make up their own minds. I wish they could see how sorry he is - not paying for anything - I finally told my oldest S (15) this morning that this wasn't my idea (the separation) and I did all I knew to do to try and keep it from happening since one of his remarks to me about time on the weekend was - "you should have thought about that". I almost lost it. I am trying to control my anger but am praying it all plays out in time and they see him for what he really is - he is using them for his own guilt and loneliness - UGH!!!!!!!! Makes me want to go ahead, file and get some order into my life.
