Congratulations on the new freelance gig! That's so exciting. And good for you for remembering to treat yourself to something special like a pedicure. You can enjoy a nice walk on the beach and admire the cute toes.
I just read the last 3 pages of your sitch and you've received no advice. It seems to me that you think by going n/c your x won't contact you. Every person thinks that. Will he/she think I don't love them anymore? How can I do that to *them*? I love him/her. Think about that. Really think about that. It doesn't work that way. I think you are afraid he's going to think you are mad at him. Your x knows you love and him and did not want the R to end. He knows exactly where you are and how to reach you. But what if he's too prideful? Then that is on him. And says a great deal about his character. He could be emailing you to a) stay in contact b) ease his guilt c) both.
I know you mentioned people make it sound like your sitch is hopeless. I don't believe that to be the case at all. I don't say this to be harsh and everyone can crack out a 2x4 with a vengeance with what I'm about to say. The reality is at BD your R as you know it is DONE. Whether it's a WAS, MLC, etcetera. It's over as you know many people (and understandably so) clutch on to "we were together 8, 10, 15, 25 years. How can this be it?" The reality is that you can rebuild your r. Doesn't mean it can't happen. You can always have hope. That's perfectly fine. However, just from my perspective, you appear to be holding on a bit tightly. Occasionally, things happen and there doesn't appear to be a legitimate explanation. Sometimes those answers come with time.
So respond to the emails if you want in your own time. I think NC may be good for you now.
Sounds like some exciting things in your life:-) keep it up!
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer
