Been doing well. Really minimal contact with W after making the schedule last week. I'm still very torn. After discussing the phone issue she mentioned she wasn't sexting anymore the other day. She also has been impressed a few times buy what I am doing with the kids. However, she has given no signs of anything else, or of wanting to R.
As for me, the important part of this equation. I've adjusted back to work, gotten busy again, and been keeping my PMA going well. Tarzan has been working out a lot, and taking photography classes. Sporting seasons are about to start again.
Still a lot of sadness, but I realize lots is out of my control. Had a friend of a friend tell me that he knew, and that he was uncomfortable not telling me. Felt bad for me. The last thing I want. I don't want anyone feeling sorry for me, although the kind words are nice.
Really in a catch twenty two with respect to my stitch. Need to wait four more months to do anything because better financially, but may need to speed up process. With respect to moving forward, it may be helpful mentally I guess. And of course, in my dream world, anything can be reversed.
The one thing that sticks with me is to be the man no sane woman would want to leave. So now that some people know, I do have lots of interest from females, but of course I demur. And then I think, oh right, sane woman. I'm sorry that sounds bitter a bit. I fully accept responsibility for my mistakes in my M. I've worked hard to change myself with IC and reflective listening as well as reading several books. Learning is ongoing. The journey is never ending.
Thinking positively, Ms Dev hasn't sent me a text barrage for a week.....
Big weekend with the kids coming up here. I'll kept you posted
Cheers,and this one was a bit of a journal ramble :-)
