So I did decline the invite, she replied "Wow, she must be really special to be more important than me and our S" .... I just ignored the comment .... went over at the agreed time to talk finances, she was probing, again brought up me and seeing someone. .... truth is I have an IC appt, and was planning on going to my GAL function with the Harley group .. but I didnt tell her. So we started the finance talk .. she kept going off topic, I stayed calm, told her I was only there for the $$ talk ... she started bringing up the past so I simply left and said I would wait for S outside (her appt was in 30 min) ... few minutes later she came out .. and we had a talk ... I validated alot of her issues .. I listened ... and I also told her I was completely interested in forgiving her, rebuilding the trust .. and putting the work into our M if she was willing to do that ... regardless I have set personal goals and have a plan for my life that I intend on pursuing. I would prefer she was a a part of that. It was actually a good talk , we went back up and finished the finances, thing is I have been giving her more than enough, and after we talked she realized that amount was going to decrease .... and its still WAY more than if we would D ... the bright shiny life she once thought would be so great has quickly diminished ... looks like OM is not in the picture (I can not confirm this ... nor do I really believe it 100% but seems there is something not right with the A).
So ... as painful as it was .. I think there is progress, she is at least looking internally and starting to take a little responsibility here and there for her actions .. but she still does blame me for a good chunk ... baby steps I suppose .. I will take small positives and a little shot of hope here and there.
