I agree with you. If I decide to go NC, that's all I would write for a bday message. I guess what I'm afraid of is that feeling of "Is this it?" Is this REALLY how ten years ends? Someone gets to just walk out, disappear off the radar for three months, send some friendly emails and then.. boom. It's DONE? That, I think, is my biggest issue with everything. It bugs me that I could have been that dumb, almost, to not see any of this coming? I know this is far more about HIM having a problem than me, but you know, we are the ones that get left with those thoughts..
If he just accepts the fact that I have gone NC, and goes NC himself, essentially, that would be hard for me. And I guess that's the last thing I have to deal with before I really decide if I'll do it: Am I ready to accept that we might never, ever talk again? That's the risk..
