She wanted me to have a paycheck job instead of the erratic life of an entrepreneur. Finish projects in the house(if I go back, I know good people now that can finish the work in a week) Get rid of junk(she and her guy friends are doing that now without my interference since I am court ordered away from the house) She resisted intimacy probably from her two hour daily conversations with OM that I was not aware of until we separated.
I know deep down I deserve all these arrows. She feels like she has earned a crown and walks away as a boss. I know from the very little I heard from others that she takes much joy from my pain. I do not want to be one of broken for life divorced people.
Her distance made me depressed. And that pushed her away further. I know I have the abilities now to give her the best life but if she has fully embraced the single clubbing party life there isn't anything I can do.
I want kids and she doesn't anymore We follow the same faith. I still care and she doesn't anymore.
Staying dark means not even reaching her family which I unfortunately tried as a go between for a month and they either didn't send my message or twisted it to make it worse
Thanks for caring and asking the tough needed questions
