Welcome to the best place to be, during this challenging time in your life.
Thank you for your post in my thread. I realize that in my last post in my thread, there are some parallels in our situations. At the beginning of my situation, I was the LBS. One thing that I can have you reference, is my timeline. Bring your patience.
You will read over and over on the forums to detach. For me, that was key and it isn't a skill that comes naturally. It is a learned skill. It was for me at least.
There are a lot of things that I can say, however this journey begins with you. It begins with you making changes. It begins with you becoming the best you that you possibly can become. Go out there and GAL(Get a life). Live life, because it does not await anyone. This is for your own good. Imagine the perfect partner, then go out there and become that person.
Sometimes our situations/life will knock us down to the point of emotional paralysis. That is normal. However, you have a choice to stay down or to keep fighting. You only control one person, and that person is you.
I realize how much going through this suks, however I am grateful for the experience. It has changed me for the better. You can learn more from one storm, than a thousand days of sunshine.
Me:45 ExW:48 M:04/97 3 Bombs & 2 ReCons 1st BD 11/10 D Finalized 4/20 D-16 S-14 Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa
