I was doing so good

[u-turn]

I agree that you have to protect yourself - financially and emotionally.

Revenge - I get it but it will never help and never make you feel better. Keep on the high road man!

I also get angry, sad, paranoid. I have times that I cannot block the thoughts.

When we went to C several months ago (failure). It was determined that I internalized my feelings too much. Now, I have to do just that. internalize my feelings so I can stay strong - or at least seem that way.

Remember - she did not do this to you - I don't believe it is their goal to hurt us. she did/is doing this to herself. It may have nothing to do with you.