barely holding on - 3

[u-turn]

even with the level of detaching that I am doing, I can look at things a little differently. It's almost like I can look at our current life as an outsider - like I'm watching a bad tv show.

This morning she said that she still loves me - I tried to just validate her - we haven't said that to each other in a long time.

I told her that "I still feel love for you too" - probably shouldn't have said it. Probably shouldn't believe it from her. She said she really does. (like she was forcing the point). I said "I know you do".

At that moment I didn't feel detached, so I said good bye for the day and left for work. Not much to report there, but it was a change in her. I try not to keep looking for signs, but that is difficult.

I will be spending the entire day with her on saturday to travel to a funeral for my aunt. (8 hours of driving)