Chapter 2: Letting Go

[juliegayle]

I just want this to be over but I am going to have to have this man in my life forever. I said that to him the other day and he said, no as soon as s was 18 we never had to see each other again. I reminded him that s was not going to be out on his own. That we would be caring for him as an adult.

Everyone thinks I should just leave but I have, no money and no one to help. Also, if I go, I have to start dealing with h wanting s half the time and that is not a good idea.

I just don't understand why he keeps getting meaner. He keeps, making these nonthreats. Like " you f'd with the wrong petson" last night he threw a ball at the back of my head and claimed it just went a stray when he was playing with dog. Then he went in bathroom and scratched up his arm and said I clawed at him trying to get the ball. All he kept saying was "you have no proof you, have no proof" he is crazy.

I called a woman's abuse hotline. I said I was afraid to call police because I didn't think anything would come of it and then h would just, be meaner. They said that was a very real possibility. They said I could try for a protective order but also unlikely I would get that since h hasn't touched me and threats seem empty and non specific.

And I thought I was very clear with OW but she continues to call and text.

Anyone know any loop holes. I make too much to qualify for a pro Bono lawyer but not enough to save anything for a lawyer.

I just feel royally s@rewrd