True pilot. True. I'm not as upset as I would have been a few weeks ago, so I guess I have achieved some detachment!
I did think things were going well and that is why I am extra disappointed at this OW news. But as you say, this rollercoaster is making me jaded. I wanted to believe my WAH is the loyal, wonderful, kind, sweet, loving person I married. But that person is GONE. He is a liar, he is confused, he is lost. I want nothing to do with this new person. He has nothing good to offer me. When I think of him I feel disgust and pity.
Then the moments come where I remember the sweet and loving H, and I am so sad that he died.
The fog is thick. I thought it was clearing but apparently not. Hang on for the rollercoaster to continue. Unless we get off...
