Living the dream...one day at a time

[wishing, hoping]

Thank you.

I don't have cable. I stream TV through netflix. And I do have a budget set up and I go through the numbers in black and white as well as in my head. I have a cushion, but in my head it's never enough. That's my issue and I'm trying to work through it. A few weeks ago I was really confident about the progress I was making towards being debt-free, but I have confidence setbacks. That is when I just need to breathe. There isn't much more I can cut out of my budget. It's bare bones as it is. I am just hard on myself. It just helps to vent sometimes. Helps me get a better perspective.

J is very subtle. I know him like the back of my hand. He starts out talking about the kids and gently segways into something else. He doesn't have any friends. Not real friends that is. He has OW (who needs enemies with a friend like that) and he THINKS I am his friend. He vents, I say nothing. When I am tired of hearing it, my phone cuts out. LOL!

I do document the stuff that goes on with OW and my kids, but the courts don't care. If they aren't in immediate danger, the courts don't care. The GAL already told me that a year ago. There's nothing I can do about what goes on over there. BUT I did tell S that if things didn't get better when he gets older he can chose to live with me if he wants. It's all in J's corner. I told him to tell his dad how he feels ganged up on and bullied. I can't do anything about it. But it's going to hurt their relationship in the future. J already has no relationship with his son from his first marriage.

Thanks for caring anywho.

WH