Well, dinner went all right. I couldn't have done this before tonight so it's just as well I turned him down the other two nights.
Thanks to all of your support here today I was able to smile, be relaxed, chat about the kids, talk a bit about the fun we had this weekend, ask about his outing last night, and generally look pretty good for the evening. We had fun, and he even said he had fun tonight when he said good night.
He hugged me hello and goodbye, a first. They weren't particularly good hugs, but there were two of them, and I thought for a moment he was going to kiss my cheek goodbye, but either I was mistaken or he changed his mind, whatever.
At the end of the evening he said "I'll see you Friday" -- his day to take the kids -- and I said "Friday?" (forgetting he would be taking them) and he said, oh, yeah, we were going to do lunch weren't we? But no plans were made for that so we'll see if it happens or not.
Whatever happens, I did the best I could and I don't think I made a terrible job of it. The restaurant where we ate dinner was one that we used to have brunch at every Sunday and the waitress recognized us and talked for several minutes, gave me a lot of compliments on how great my hair looks and asked where I had it done, and I could see him looking at me while she went on and on about how pretty I look. That was nice. I'm not just vain.
I don't know what will happen but he would be a fool to leave me even if he doesn't know it. I may not be perfect but at least I want to be a work in progress. Thank you all so much for your support.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
