Family dinner is tonight, Labug. We're getting together alone later this week.
We moved away from doing fun outings when our first baby was born. Then, when we would have gone back to them, he started the MBA program. Then, when the program ended, we moved to the west coast and I went into a long depression (didn't want to move) and then our third child was born. (Second child born during MBA). When I recovered from the depression things started to get better, but then our big financial problem and it all went back downhill in a hurry.
When we moved back east it was supposed to be the opportunity to rebuild and make things good again but instead he started the affair.
I've been having a great time doing the things I missed without him. I don't ever want to give it up. When I'm alone I feel like I'm recharging, rather than lonely and ignored like I did when he was home. And he has been so hurtful in the last... Long time.
I'm working to have no expectations today. I've been comfortable without him. But I will have to figure it out. I'll always have to know him.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
