I hear you. And mindsets are hard to change. There is a TEDtalk about the power of positive thinking-- how it affects our mood, our actions, and therefore affects everything else around us. Maybe could be good to watch a couple of motivational talks to try to get your thinking on a different track?
If you expect it to be miserable, it probably will be, you know? (That probably means you have expectations that aren't going to be met). So, go in with no expectations. (Easier said than done, I know).
