Slowly switching gears

[Anders]

I cried, I prayed for help as to what I should do, read through my db notes. Then I caved in and used my friend's account to check out W's dating profile. And there she is, with a picture from our engagement as her main photo. And all the things she is looking for in a man. I felt very tired and defeated.

I had made plans last night to go to a church music worship session before all of this. I was glad I did go even though I had to drag myself out of the house.
But the music was exactly what I needed, providing a lot of comfort. And it sounds cliche but it was very powerful and uplifting.

As I sat in the parking lot, I opened up the 'The Love Dare'. I have been reading through this but have not been able to do many of the dares involving W given our geographic distance. But Day 39 of the book is titled 'Love Endures'. And the love dare is to spend time in personal prayer and then to write a letter of commitment and resolve to the spouse.

And at this point in the game, I think this may be the best course to take. She always loved my love letters to her. And even during the last couple of years, my letters have helped thaw out some icy moments.

I really welcome advice on this. Given the context of my situation, any points I should consider?