Nitty -- there is a reason your mediation appointment did not take place. Yes, a reprieve. Some more time to think, or plan. I am in the same boat. Mediation coming soon. I don't even know how I am going to actually DO it, sitting in the same room with H, discussing how we are going to divorce each other. To me, that just is still unbelievable. It takes guts, and you have them. Do not let him scare you in any way -- he is just another human being, same as you. You're strong, and you'll come out of this even stronger. I hope the extra time gives you whatever you need to get through it all.
Me 53, XH 57 M 20 (+1.5) years, no kids BD June '13 H moved out July '13 Confirmed long-suspected PA Feb '14 H filed for D Nov. '14 D March '15