Woke up early this morning and coached my sons soccer game .. W was there, I was in a good mood, just bing happy. walked them to the car after and she asked if I was taking S to church ... I confirmed I would like to and invited her to go (different church as she was not connecting with the priest change from our church) .... she agreed and we decided to meet there. She texted me about S ... nothing important .. I replied nicely. then she asked later if I have a cord for her computer ... again .. replied I would bring it to church ... then she invites me to a walk after church wanting me to bring the dog ... I thought about it and figured its a good chance to keep building the positives that I have done well with .
All this while I was GAL .... I bought the Harley .. decided I deserved it, its something to help me GAL, joined the local chapter, and will attend some of the rides ... something I have always wanted to do ... at the moment its left me $$ strapped ... I was just going in to look .. but ended up going ahead with it. I am not telling W, if she finds out .. fine .. but with the $$ talks I am just not going to open that can of worms. Will be a week till I actually have it ... but its all set.
It made me feel really good ... during the process I just became more and more at peace with it. So ... its a 180 for me to spoil myself ... and it will help the GAL ... and we will see what this weekend brings with W ... no expectations .. just going along with it ... not sure what is up with OM ... I am at a point I know I am close to forcing the issue .. just not this week
