Thanks MrBond, I see how I was letting fear dictate my actions. I'm still really scared but I can't show that. You're right the hail mary pass wont work anyway and can only serve to make things worse (I think I already knew this deep down). I will proceed with selling the house as planned and continuing on with my life with out W.
Thanks bdub, I am currently read DR now hope to get time to finish it tomorrow, apparently GAL is so demanding I haven't left myself anytime to actually read lol. Your words "what you feel today is not what you will feel tomorrow" truely helped me through one of my weak days. I feel much better today and am actually excited to spend the night with some friends. I've made my decision about the house for me because it's what I want and what has to happen, free and clear of any emotionally rash thinking from yesterday.
Me 28 W 27 T 10 M 2 No kids (fertility issues - mine) Bomb 7/20/2014 - EA Confirmed W moved out 9/15/14 W dating OM 11/22/14