Today as part of my GAL I completed our mud volleyball tournament that my hospital sponsored, it was soo much fun! H has had the boys
I am really struggling and I know this is where C is going to come in and I've been re-reading DR (I don't have DB and I actually liked DR better than DB when I read them awhile back)
I don't know I can let go of H and OW. I found out he took her away on vacations and to places where he and I would take the boys. It is a kick in the stomach. We were supposed to take the boys out tonight (first time the 4 of us since he left in February) and I honestly told him I don't know that I can go after finding this other stuff out. I don't know how to deal. We have counseling Friday.
Oh and the response I always get from H is - there is nothing I can do about the past and the mistakes I've made. The only thing I can help is this day forward and try my best to prove to you that I am sorry and I will never do it again
