What he has done to your family is awful. To the kids and you. And I agree they do somewhere feel guilty - I always try to kill him with kindness but even over three years in I can't look him in the eye. I just can't. Total and complete betrayal.

All I can say is I spent two years working through my mistakes and really changing the things about me that needed to be changed. Lots of therapy.

I love the new me.

I love my new friends on these boards and in alanon.

I love trying to play guitar. I love my exercise routine. I love that I rarely rarely drink anymore.

And of course I love my amazing girls.

Remind yourself of all the things you have to be grateful for and add something fun to your life - a just for Mighty thing

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M 39
H 35
D5,D4
M 4
T 9
ILYBNILWY 5/18/11
Left 7/11/11
Divorced 12/1/13