Spent pretty much the whole morning with H. The kids both had soccer. We sort of danced around each other, sometimes chatting and smiling a lot but then other times keeping a big distance.
H said to me: "With the breeze I keep smelling your perfume, it smells good."
He offered to do some bulk shopping for me today, he's going to one of those wholesale clubs.
When we were leaving he asked me if I wanted to go to lunch with them (he has the kids today). I ask no, but thanks for asking. I feel a bit odd doing stuff with kids at this stage, given how far back we seem to have slid and are still barely beginning to regain our footing. Although I must say that I left the soccer field and got in the car and cried. I miss my family.
I am a little concerned about saying 'no' to H's invite to lunch. I didn't really explain that I feel like he and I should probably spend a bit of time just us before pulling the kids back in again. Should I clarify this with him? Thoughts?
M: 42 H: 43 M: 8 years S7 and D4 H has D19 and S25 from previous M Bomb: 3/6/14 OW discovered, EA & PA 1st separation, 10 days, decided to reconcile & moved back in. Fail 2nd separation: 5/1/14
