First post - My WAH story

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Thanks for the support, Alang.

I'm still thinking about how to respond to H, but I think it can wait till tomorrow.

I'm feeling pretty bummed again today. This is one of the 5x/year H and I usually go down to LA to see his family. He's going without me for the first time since we've been engaged and it just makes me sad. He asked me to go down with him when he went in June, even though he'd already asked for a D, and my coach had been optimistic about that. But I wasn't asked along this time. The last I heard he planned to tell his parents this weekend that we are "having problems." Then he plans to tell them about D in about a month.

I do have fun plans for today. My roommate and another friend and I plan to play tourists for the day. We're going to take the ferry into SF, go to the farmers market, shop, and walk along the Embarcadero. Then we're going to bring our produce home and cook, which is a huge 180 for my non-cooking self (something H always had a problem with since he likes to cook). So that should help take my mind off things for a little while. Tomorrow I'm having brunch with my cousin's friend who is going into grad school in my field and wants to pick my brain about it. Then my dad and I are meeting with a lawyer. I decided to meet with one since this is the parent of a kid I work with and when I told her about what H had figured out for our split financially (he wants us to do the paperwork ourselves), she told me I really need someone looking out for me because what he's calculated didn't sound right AT ALL. I know I still want to reconcile but the angry and bitter part of me feels vindicated that he's going to be hit financially a lot harder than he thinks and if this D goes through he actually might not be able to afford to stay in our house.