I've taken a break from the forums because my life has been super hectic, but I still think of you guys
So update- I decided to let the annulment go so I can just be done with things. Were officially divorced. I stopped contact all together except for today. XH keeps doing stuff like closing my bank account with out notifying me or like today when I was notified that I had a week to find insurance or I can't cover my upcoming MRI. (cobra is expensive.) So I texted him just asking him if he knew about the change in insurance. Of course he did. I was pissed he didn't give me a heads up sooner. He knew since the beginning of August. Yes I wanted to yell some profanities and ask him to kindly get his head out of his ass. Or I can sell the remainder of his items to pay off Cobra insurance (hehe) but I took a breather and texted forget about it. I feel like he's doing these things to see me suffer still. But I thought if he's that desperate for company on his journey to rock bottom he can find someone else to make miserable.
On a good note, yes I have chronic back problems. I've started doing yoga when I get off work to help my muscles. My Dr temporarily gave me anti inflammatory medication until the MRI is done. I feel and look great (except for back problems). I start grad school Monday, I'm scared but happy my boss is working around my schedule. I wonder if my brain still works.
Anyway so weird. So I dated briefly this guy when I was 22. He graduated before I did and moved to the east coast, it was not a serious relationship at that time. We texted on and off for the last six years about purely plutonic stuff. I don't have Facebook or any social media sites so it was crazy that he just started getting flirtatious (asking me if I was single). I didn't bring up all my problems but just answered yes I'm single. His family lives in California and he's visiting them towards fall, and wants to meet up. I'm not rushing a serious relationship (been separated officially for more than a year) and I feel ready to test the waters slowly. He is tall dark and handsome with some intelligence. Probably not as spontaneous as me, but a little bit difference is good. I feel like this moment was waiting for me....its just weird. I feel right about things with him even though were still just friends right now. But I feel like he carries a lot of potential... Well I won't put all my eggs in one basket, but I need to start somewhere. Can I have a do over please with a guy who is well grounded? as for me still seeing therapy less and less (recommended by therapist) she sees a lot of progress in me. I feel like I've dealt with a lot of deep seeded issues but some I still need to address.
