Wow! Shining, I read your post earlier and it made me pretty emotional. I couldn't respond right away, because it was overwhelming. It was really nice and helped me get through the day. And I got a lot accomplished, including completing the painting of the newly added bathroom! Yeah! Almost done!! Thank you. I really don't feel strong- just lost. Thanks for the kind words.

JG, GB, Bright- Thanks so much for the support. You all are the best. I don't know how I would have made it without coming here. I know it will get better... I hope sooner than later. I feel so displaced today. I really don't have closure. My h told me in Oct that he wanted a divorce and he didn't love me. I was blown away. He moved out Thanksgiving weekend just saying he needed time and space and we would just separate (all while making comments about our future plans). I got a text in March stating he had made an appointment with mediator. There was never really a discussion about him ending the divorce. Nothing since bd in October. I thought for sure we would have SOME kind of discussion. All the while we were very friendly (outside of his monster episodes).

Then nuked in July. Haven't spoken since.

Now it's final and still silent.

Weird.

Well, only one way to go from here- up!

BTW, GB, I rocked a maxi the other day and thought of you!

Peace