H's MLC #3

[2BHappy]

Yes, been praying ALOT, I dont think you can pray too much.

I'm a card person, and I decided to get a card and leave it on nightstand.

H has never mentioned my ring, I have caught a 2nd glance to my finger from H when I did not have it on.

Actually H does not remember dates, the card might remind him it's our anniversary...he is usually off a day or 2.

Today as H was leaving for work, we were talking about son & football ...I noticed him lingering,,,he actually came into where I was and leaned in for a goodbye kiss that has NOT happen in a while..a couple of months, I have given him a couple to test waters but not him actually coming in for a kiss goodby.

I agree that unless I rock the boat my H may not leave our home. I "think" he is not sure what he wants, he also does not want to be the "bad" guy and leave his family, he may also be comfortable here in our home, he may be cake eating, some comments he has made makes me feel like he is not ready to let me go. @Job that was alot of over analying I just did.

H has never mentioned D it was me who brought it up one time last year. H has offered to leave he said if it would make me feel better, he also threaten to leave once when I was being very emotional, crying , telling him off etc...but nothing since I think April.

Oh I also had to validate today...his niece, she and I have not been the best of friends,,,well she challenge me to the ALS ice bucket challenge, H was like I bet she did, I said why you say that,,he was like you have been mean to her for years...at first I said no it was mutual etc, and started to defend and point out her issues,,but then I said you are right "she and I started out on the wrong foot" but we are better now and he said yeah now you guys are...

I overthink toooo many things, so a 180 for myself will be to work on this in general not just as it relates to my M.