Thanks Casey & Raliced for the replies ....I am still up in the air about it ... thinking of putting it off a little bit and paying some other things off first.
Dropped off S this morning, she seemed like she was in a chipper mood, I have been struggling the past few days, but trying to "fake it till I make it" .... my patience is just not there right now, she asked me if something was wrong and I told her no everything was good .... I did not go into her place, just gave my son a hug and wished them both a nice day and left. This is slowly killing me, I know I am not detaching .... so hard after 24 years. Well .. at least there was not a backslide ... I have no intel on if OM is still in picture or not, she doesn't text me at night so either she is trying to stay solo ... or she is back with him ... either way I realize it doesn't matter, things will go where they will all I can do is continue to work on me.
