I've made a few back slides over the past couple of days, had a massive fight with h last night, over him having the boys for an extra night on Sunday as I'm going to see my mum who isn't well, he said he was fine with that and actually pushed me to go, then rang yesterday to ask if I minded if he went out on Sunday and got a babysitter to watch the boys, I saw red, I heard all his of eexcuses my head and completely lost it. I did do a 180 for me though and sent a text a apologizing for my behavior, that I was understandably stressed about my mum. He sent one back saying he should be sang sorry and that all I had to do was say no, and that would have been fine. I guess when you've had things like this continuously pop up in the past, it's hard to see that what he's saying is the truth. can't get a handle on detaching, am gal, working as much I can, back to the gym( 11 weeks til I turn 40, determined to look a million bucks!) taking the boys to different places when I have them.
Also felt silly this morning, had to take my car to be serviced, had asked h a couple of days ago to pick me up from there, and take me home, he said no worries, I made the assumption after yesterday that he a: wouldn't do it and b: would forget as nothing had been said in a couple of days, so I organised a loan car for the day, and I was driving home I saw h heading to the car dealership to pick me up. I rang straight away to tell him what had happened and he said he was always going to pick me up. I just can't get it right...
