Igit newbie needs help part 3

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Not the best night. Got home from work at 630 had mens bible study at 7.house and kitchen was a disaster. Wife said she was going to y said kids be ok she be back at 730. I got home at 9 and kitchen still a disaster, I cleaned dishes , swept floor, wife came down I said hello and she mumbled something. I was irritated and said you can at least say hi. I should have went to bed. Started argument for 5-10 min. She was mad as all get go. I let her pull me into it. We calmed down and talked for 20 minutes she asked why I won't give up. I told her I don't want this for us or our kids. It's hard enough doing this together how are we going to do this Divorced. Anyway I apologize d to her about something I did along time ago. I wasn't very sympathetic about a miscarriage 10 yrs ago and told her I was sorry. She then asked me to admit that I never loved her. I was floored. My answer was I have always loved you I am sorrIy you feel that way. I told her I didn't want to give up on our family but would go along with D and try and be civil. She talked about getting an apartment closer to school after D and me stay with kids until school was out. She told me to be positive about future, my answer was look I will be fine I just want my kids to be happy. There hapiness is more important than my own. She told me she felt the same way. So I feel I backslided tonight but am only human. I feel her anger and not sure if it's all about me.