I find my ability to detach comes and goes. It's harder being in closer contact with him. It leaves me more vulnerable. But I'm working on it.
i know- you left me wondering if i'll "do this forever" because it (he) comes and goes - and after three weeks totally alone in nj - i miss having someone in the house with me. I always wonder tho - if it went on for five or six weeks - would i begin to totally just let go totally?
when i'm with him here in fla i feel life is more "normal" - but always aware of disconnect (however less cold & hard than before he is now) . it's still there- ow in background. messes with my head & of course, knowing it- puts "something" between us always. (for me anyway.)
they toy with us-
we'll be total masters of our minds and emotions when this is ever done- donja think?
idk- you sounmd good, so glad for ya and nice that he shared what is up with him and so forth. it's something- for sure.
