barely holding on - 3

[u-turn]

Well, a little movement, but I will try not to read too much into it.

This morning W said she was still trying to figure herself out and she is very angry and upset with herself. As far as mind reading goes and with overhearing a conversation she was having with a friend of hers (unintentional snooping I guess), I believe she may be having issues with being the OMs OW - if that makes sense. He doesn't want to leave his family and that just leaves W being his mistress - and I think she is having troubles with that (I hoped she would eventually feel that way).

I just listened to her, played it cool, acknowledged that I heard her. I'm not sure I provided much validation. I thought about telling her that it must be very difficult for her, but I thought that may sound judgmental or insincere. I don't know. She did give me a long hug before I left for work. I'm still a little confused as to how to react that. I hugged her back.

She hasn't reached out to me or even talked to me in a while (except for logistics and her work - not).

I will leave this sit now and see how she continues or not. The ball is still in her court.

I do look at my timeline compared to others (8 months of trouble, 6 months since I discovered A) I know it could be a very long time yet - if ever.

Respect to the long haulers! I will keep it up too.