This has been a day i want to forget for sure . My anxiety and fear of losing everything i hold dear has been overwhelming . I hope to get home tonight and put on my old sneakers and mow some grass for 4 hrs at fierce pace . Maybe this will relieve some of my stress . Again I cant put my finger on what has got me so wound up , but something defintely has . Having a good day now feels like a drug . When I have one i pray for another . And i will do anything to feel good again . Its brutally hard to exercise or GAL when Im in this rut . One day at a time ?? Heck im at one hour at a time . What a way to live . Something has got to give
Me 45 W 45 Son 16 Son 14 Married 23 together 27 W threatened sep several times W still at home A discovered Mar 17 2014 A ended DEC 2 ( skeptical )
