Have you noticed how many people are on the boards? I understand you are hurting, however, you're going to have to remember that we are here voluntarily. No one gets paid doing this.
Usually the ones who keep "demanding" advice don't get it.
So, after your H and you reconciled, did you ever talk about transparency? Ask to check his phone records and email. Just because he seems to be pulling away doesn't mean that it's a MLC.
If you're getting so paranoid about his actions now, it seems as if you never fully recovered the first time. He might even have something else on his mind that's not associated with the M. Just talk to him. Tell him of your insecurities and need him to be the trustworthy one. Then see what ACTIONS he takes.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
