Finding my way - part 5

[Meghan]

Okay, email was sent this morning. It was hard to do - it still felt very important, but I appreciate all the reminders that this is one little thing, and nothing is likely to come of it.

It's a marathon, not a sprint.

Just after I sent it I suddenly realized that if I email him, he's likely to email back, and I have no idea what that email will contain, and no control over it, and that is seriously freaking me out right now. There is a potentially infinite amount of stuff I don't want to hear or deal with that could be in that email.

I suppose we will likely have to talk eventually, and I will learn things eventually, and I'm just going to have to deal with whatever happens when it happens. Might as well take the opportunity of him thinking about me to be as positive and sparkly and awesome as I can rather than putting it off and get that dialogue open now so he knows he can get in touch if he needs or wants to.

Thanks, everyone - many, many thanks.