Possible MLC WAH, and need guidance

[Atsbaby]

Thanks Matt. You really make me think differently about what he's been saying. This just shows me I'm still very emotionally attached and haven't pulled away like I did before...it's my poor choices of intimacy.

It really stinks that we have to ride the crazy train with them. Apparently I'm getting off sooner since H wants to proceed with D. I have the book "The Solo Partner" by Phil Deluca. I skipped to the last chapters talking about pursuer and distancer. The following chapter is a workbook on yourself to stop pursuing. I'm pursuing and I just haven't figured out how, but I think it could be that I'm giving in too quickly to his wants.

Unfortunately S10 came home sick today, but it does give me a couple hours to focus on this self reflection. Many of the same techniques he suggests match with db and Sandi2's rules.

I will be stronger and people I have told my story to IRL, have told me that I'm stronger than they could every be. It helps me know that I'm doing good on the outside and people are seeing this strong person, even though I don't feel it on the inside.