afraid I have waited too long #4

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Thanks for responding NewB3,

I am good on the GAL stuff but there is always room for more.

I will go back and reread DB again regarding the LRT.

I have the LRT letter written just not inclined to give it to my W just yet.

I feel I have moved on with my life in almost every facet except dating which I find very difficult to do while still being M, you know being an adulterer.

In other words, I am not actively looking to date but if an angel fell out of the sky I may tread lightly into that scene but probably not since it wouldn't be fair to the other party till I am D.

I do the GAL dance somewhat with a air of mystery concerning what I am doing and with who but there is no romantic interest on the horizon but my W doesn't need to know what I do.

Even if I was wanting to date not sure it would change W mind so I don't want to compromise my values for something that will have no bearing on my W feelings nor should I ever compromise beliefs for anything for anybody.

I thought about being firm with my W and in conjunction with the letter telling her that if she leaves there is no turning back but I know in my Heart I can't say that and mean it right now.

I am out of ideas to try and it may be too late anyways but I am a very hopeful person by nature and will have that till the Papers are signed.

I have failed miserably when attempting to set boundaries and W wouldn't abide by them anyhow in her current emotional state.

If you or anybody else has something to try I am ready and willing to listen and possibly implement it. I have asked if she would talk to my DB coach. At first she thought about it then went cold on the idea so I haven't asked in about 6 weeks.

Stay Strong!!