After sleeping on it, or tossing and turning a lot, H hasn't really done anything different. He has shown no action of filing that I didn't know about, other than when he retained, they drew up the paper work.

Thanks Matt and Nitty. I would never wish my enemy to ever go through this nightmare. MLC stinks and the fact that you can't convince them to slow down and think things through.

There are times when I see so much clarity from him that I wonder if it's MLC, but I guess any normal person would be able to hold a conversation and actually tell you what went wrong and actually want to fix it.

I can't go dark because of the kids, but he had said when this all started that when I was away or he was away he never missed me. He still hasn't given me the chance to get away for him to miss me.

I don't know what to do.

He did admit that he had fun golfing, but it felt like we were two friends out there. I told him that's how it starts, by being friends...that's how we started our relationship 19 years ago. He started to get mad and I stopped talking.

I also backslid by throwing his ea from 3 years ago in his face, telling him that's when we should have gone to counseling, but he refused!

It's going to be a long day!


Atsbaby
M:36 H:35
T: 19 M:12
S:11
D:9
BD: 5/4/14
Proof of OW 8/13/14-love note from her
8/19 admits OW
8/22/14 files D w/o telling me
9/20/14 Says he wants to reconcile