Possible MLC WAH, and need guidance

[Atsbaby]

So this leads to our R. I'm glad we got here because I don't know what he's been thinking or doing behind my back. H still wants out. When I asked him why he wants out so quickly, he went back to "our m has been over for 3 years." So why can't we go to counseling or work on things. People don't throw away 19 years..."I can't discuss it" What kind of f'ed up lawyer does he have????

Needless to say, the paperwork has been drawn up for 2 weeks and he has yet to file. I asked to have a couple weeks to find my own lawyer...which I actually see next Tuesday. Hopefully this guy can work some magic!

I know its only a piece of paper, but man I feel like my world has spiraled out of control again. This is NOT how our R is going to go!! We WILL work, and I WILL fight to the end!

I know a lot of you guys feel so lost and confused when your H's say they want to come back, but then say not and then say yes; but I've not once heard those words. I wanted to feel hope that he was just a crazy MLCer, and he still is, but he's so stuck on getting out that there is no hope left.

I'm going to have to go dim. I have to get away and hope and pray to the Lord above that He will intervene to save us! No one else can!!