Ugh, Ats. I'm sorry. That's a tough pill to swallow. The timing is similar with mine... when things started going down, her, yadda... ugh... the pits.
You will get through this. Now, it feels the worst. It will go up from here- it has to! It was good you mentioned the note. The timing was going to come. The details of h and ow r are irrelevant. But it is hard to wrap your head around the whole thing. I'm sorry... but I am so serious when I tell you it will get better! Everyone kept telling me that, and I didn't believe it, or I just thought I wanted it to go back to how it was. It can't. It's different. There is still hope! You will get through this, regardless. You will be better. You will be stronger. You are amazing and have been doing so well. That is a testament to how you will overcome another obstacle. Please be careful in what you believe. He will tell you what he wants you to hear and what he can handle telling you. I don't think mlcers tell anymore than they can deal with. Does not mean there is more, but there may be. You're good, Ats. It is a journey... there is still a long road. Keep posting. It helps.
