First post - My WAH story

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I feel like I've even doing a decent job at following DB, but now I feel paralyzed and don't know what to do. Help! H just texted me tonight saying he finished reading the library books I'd let him borrow from me a month ago. He asked if I wanted him to bring them by. He then followed up with, "How are you?" What do I say? I've been NC for 9 days now. Why am I so confused about what to do??