Thank you Job. I try, every day.

About the house - yes, I'm 'cautiously optimistic', shall we say. This house is 2 years old - we built it - in a very desirable area and it would sell within a week, guaranteed. We're having a formal appraisal done so that things will be fair. Really though, he's going to be cash-poor for a while if he does manage to buy it from me. And if he doesn't, my biggest worry will be how fast can I pack up and get out of here, because people will be lining up to make offers. Kind of a good worry to have. He will not get off cheap. I want a fair payoff.

Getting excited as I look at new house listings...I have faith that the right one will come along soon after my funds become available.

I must comment here, again, about Mighty's post on Georgiabelle's thread. It reads like this:

Don't beat yourself up about resentment and all that. I think it is human nature, no matter who you are or whom you are dealing with. If we had know it would have come to this, of course we would have addressed it sooner! Things would be way different. We took for granted that they would be there no matter what. Well, really, I knew I would be and I was committed and that I would never just walk away- especially without addressing something! So, I assumed that he was too. He was supposed to be. He should have spoke up if he felt "resentment" from me- not just bail!

I've been in counseling for a year, trying to get to the bottom of this, why I took my H for granted (and he even spewed this to me during BD, that I did just that). Why I felt that it was somehow 'guaranteed' that he would stay with me, no matter what. It's because I was NOT GOING ANYWHERE. I was staying here, with him, no matter what, and 'til death do us part, just like I said I would do. I never had any doubt in my mind that HE would not do the same. I know now, today, I am not a bad person because I took him for granted. I am crying with relief as I write this. Talk about peeling away more and more layers of this so-complicated 'onion' that is me. He made me feel SO lousy about this, and now, I don't anymore. Just like that. Again, thanks Mighty. I can really move on now. Seems like that might have been the last real hurdle I just was not getting over. It just might be time to start a new thread soon.


Me 53, XH 57
M 20 (+1.5) years, no kids
BD June '13
H moved out July '13
Confirmed long-suspected PA Feb '14
H filed for D Nov. '14
D March '15