Finding my way - part 5

[Meghan]

Thanks so much for the input, everyone - you're all wonderful, and I appreciate the support so much. I'm drafting something right now - fairly short, positive, and about good things happening to me right now - and I'll post the draft for feedback later.

I'm trying not to buy into the hope that he's testing the waters right now, but it's hard not to. It's entirely possible he's just looking for an opening to ask me to send him the stuff he left or forgot here, though. Must remember it's a marathon.

My concern right now is that focusing exclusively on the positive in an email feels really inauthentic. The truth is that I feel lousy, and seeing as he knows me and I was in tears and kind of avoiding him in the few days he was here before moving out, I'm pretty sure that he knows definitively that I'm feeling cruddy right now.

Is keeping up a positive mental attitude in this email something that he's going to be able to see through?

Is there any danger in letting him think that I'm in much better shape than I actually am? For instance, will he think that I'm doing better without him, so it was okay for him to walk away?

In the email is there any reason to very, very briefly mention that there have been rough moments, or should that be left out altogether?