Hi Lisa! I hope you're having a good day and looking forward to going out of town!
A few posts back you said
This WAS behavior is so unpredictable. Add my moody crap in there too and you have a big mess. One minute I don't want him back, the next minute I'm crying over him, the next trying to flirt with another guy... I guess I can only console myself by realizing he is probably having similar crazy swings. That would explain his unpredictable communication and behaviors.
Thinking about all this brought up more questions about what I want, what are my goals, and how I can best reach them. And my constant questioning of how friendly and in contact to be. The little bit of friendly texting is good, I feel it builds a connection and allows me to show off some 180s and GALs. But then does it also alleviate his curiosity and desire to see me in person if he can get a little dose each day? I honestly can't tell. I guess I have to keep alternating NC and friendly in a random way and see what happens.
and it really resonated with me. Today I'm very much in the "I don't want him back" mood. Yesterday I was still in the "how could he do this to me" mood. Maybe tomorrow I'll be in the "flirt mildly with other men" mood (is that ok? should I do that? no?). It's so confusing and roller-coaster-y that it's hard to figure out which way is up just from my emotions let alone all the actual crap that's going on.
I think you are amazingly quick to see when you stumble off your path and you immediately get back on which I find admirable. You really are great at that.
I don't get friendly texts. I only get "daughter related" texts. I think just the fact that you're getting light-hearted texts is a GREAT sign. You're in his head a little. I'm jealous but I'm happy for you.
Thank goodness for this board, huh, Lisa? It's a great place to work things out and get kicked back onto our paths by people who truly want what we want. How amazing is that?
