If it stings so much, then you might want to really examine the whys. Get to the very bottom of the source.
Before you were cavalier in your responses about your finance here, now this got your attention. We are good at getting right to the source here in DB forums and hold people's feet to the fire.
Good.
Believe me when I say this, we are not doing this to be 'hurtful' or 'toxic'. You've clearly said that being gentle/soft wasn't working for you so we took on a more tougher approach.
When you are not deaf, not cavalier, not dense...then show us some real empathy for your former fiance and it'll show up.
To date, it has been all ABOUT your hurts, your antsy pantsy feelings, turning on us with counter arguments.
We're working WITH you in pointing you in the RIGHT direction.
You resist, fight, argue, and whatnot with us here at almost every turn.
Then you turn right back at us and throw up your arms with a veiled emotional blackmail about your "attempted suicide".